Thursday 30 January 2014

My Favourite Poem of All Time

    Max Ehrmann 


    Desiderata

    Go placidly amid the noise and haste,
    and remember what peace there may be in silence.
    As far as possible without surrender
    be on good terms with all persons.
    Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
    and listen to others,
    even the dull and the ignorant;
    they too have their story.
    Avoid loud and aggressive persons,
    they are vexations to the spirit.
    If you compare yourself with others,
    you may become vain and bitter;
    for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
    Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
    Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
    it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
    Exercise caution in your business affairs;
    for the world is full of trickery.
    But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
    many persons strive for high ideals;
    and everywhere life is full of heroism.
    Be yourself.
    Especially, do not feign affection.
    Neither be cynical about love;
    for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment
    it is as perennial as the grass.
    Take kindly the counsel of the years,
    gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
    Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
    But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
    Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
    Beyond a wholesome discipline,
    be gentle with yourself.
    You are a child of the universe,
    no less than the trees and the stars;
    you have a right to be here.
    And whether or not it is clear to you,
    no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.
    Therefore be at peace with God,
    whatever you conceive Him to be,
    and whatever your labors and aspirations,
    in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.
    With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
    it is still a beautiful world.
    Be cheerful.
    Strive to be happy.
    Max Ehrmann, Desiderata, Copyright 1952.

While lost in the middle of no where, that is where I found myself.

I think the biggest irony of all is the current state of my life. While living in a city filled with millions of people I feel the most alone that I ever have. But while living in a secluded forest in the out skirts of Ontario, no where close to civilization and with only a handful of people I have felt the most connected and at peace. Who would have guessed it? Myself most certainly not. Yet here I am feeling stranded on an island, cold, upon my return instead of feeling embraced and warm. I feel like jumping out of my skin, like my soul needs to escape this black hole of a city. It's an abstract concept feeling so connected while being so alone and so disconnected when surrounded by the masses.   Bound by commitment it's not like I had much choice when returning to this place. But come April, when given the choice this will not be where I remain. Don't get me wrong, I'm going to miss my humans and my main man Ed more then I'd like to but at a point you just have to listen to your heart. My intuition and every fibre of my being is pulling me west ward. To what? That has yet to be determined, but the feeling is there for a reason and it's time to follow that feeling and discover the reason on the way. Embracing what ever comes my way.

Carl Jung

"Loneliness does not come from having no people around you, but from being unable to communicate the things that seem important to you." -Carl Jung 

This quote is super vital to this blogs running theme. I have always had some form of understand of what communication was but my post-secondary education along with my personal life experience has opened my eyes to just how important it really is. 

I really do agree with this quote because I often find that when I am most frustrated with myself and others it's because of a lack of understanding of our communication patterns. I find myself thinking "JUST LISTEN". I can be in a room of 100 people and feel completely alone, while in other situations with only a handful of people or even just one person and feel a lot less lonely. 

When I start posting more about my experiences this past summer this idea is further explored. 

What are your thoughts on this quote?

Find What You Love And Let It Kill You

My lotus mandala :)

Alexithymia

Hello friends,

As I ease myself into this "life of a blogger" please bare with the high potential for awkward moments and lack of common blogger knowledge.

I will start with a more formal introduction.  WELCOME to Solutions of An Alexithymic.  For those of you who stumble upon this and have absolutely no idea who I am, my name is Emily Catherine Lex, but I go by Lex for short.

I have decided to start a blog as a creative outlet for the thoughts I have which are too long to post via Facebook and as a way to start to document and express more of the artistic side of my writing.  My other goal is to start to provoke thought.  I have many abstract ideas and concepts about this universe and our role in this world and sometimes there is just way too much going on in my brain that verbal expression can be way too difficult. (Google alexithymia to understand this better)  Writing has always been a way more successful way of self-expression for me.

Included here I will also be posting photos, quotes, links to various other things and basically whatever comes to mind… Ultimately this blog is for me.  I also want to share my experiences with others and start to connect with others experiences.

2014 is a big year for me and I felt that writing combined with photos, etc., would be a fantastic way to share my adventures with my friends and family without flooding everyones news feeds.

Well, post numero uno is complete… here's to bigger and better blogs to come with WAY more interesting things contained inside of it :)

Have a fantastic night, to those of you with me.